Occasionally I scare little CJ by being a bit exuberant

I’m not surprised. If this is the view he gets.

An odd day today.

A number of people from work read this so I’m careful what I say. But today, I’ll speak free.

I missed out on a job at work.

It had a team under it which is key for my next step. I manage a team of one at the moment, but it’s time for this to change.

I’m passionate about peoples development and team environment so I am passionate about getting a team of my own to see what difference I can make

Tomorrow I turn 32.

A little bit of me feels like I’ve failed. I’ve had 3 potential times to manage teams in my career and missed each one. This was a third strike blow.

I’m guttered, but not for the reasons I thought I would be.

The person they selected will be great, but brings different strengths and will take the role a different direction from what I would.

Truth is, if they want it to go that direction, then it’s not a role I want.

But that’s the problem. If things are going that direction, I’m not sure the company ethos still aligns with mine.

I need to think.

Today I’ve taken a step backwards.

Time to take a look and see where I want my steps to take me.

Tomorrows 33. I wonder where that will lead.