had thoughts in my head all day, but couldn’t inspire a picture out of them… so played around instead

28 hours ago we dropped mum and dad at the airport

they will almost be home by now, not quite though

sometimes i forget how far from home we are

and yesterday i felt more homesick than i have since we arrived

the moment we waved goodbye,

it seemed to close in around me, suffocating

ironically, today a head hunter contacted me again

the 2nd time in 2 months

for the same role back in NZ

i said no without even thinking twice

and thats when i realised why it had hit me so hard yesterday

waving goodbye

i wasn’t just waving goodbye

but i was acknowledging that for the moment

back home is no longer home for me

but then again

here doesn’t feel like home yet either

and instantly

i was lost

homeless

… will see where life takes me…